Who Will Listen?

 We watched "Wild Robot" for the first time. My heart seized a little when Fink the Fox (near the end) said, "What if I want to say something and you're not there to listen?" This is my biggest ache currently. I know where Mon Amour is going after he leaves this life. But I will be left without my best friend. I know he'll hear me when I talk, and that I may hear his response in various ways that I will learn to hear over time. But it won't be the same, what I've gotten so used to and even dependent on.

I waited a long time to find my best friend--the friend who I could eagerly go to when I wanted to talk about anything. And I have. I do. We have been so blessed to have our relationship during this time on earth. Text messages have played an incredibly large part of our communication, allowing us to talk to each other all day no matter what was keeping us from being together. And technology allowed him to work from home full-time for 2.5 years and part-time for another 20 months. This allowed us to have all of our meals together plus the evening times that were usually spent commuting. In his earlier commuting days, we saw each other for about an hour each weekday. Work-from-home meant we saw each other for 5 hours each weekday. We were so blessed to have all that time given to us when we had no idea our time together on this earth would be shorter than we hoped. Even now I get to see him all throughout the day and talk whenever I want.

Which will make me miss him all the more. And it's hurting thinking of it. As much as I'm trying to live in the now and focus on what I can control, I think it's only natural for my mind to be looking ahead at the future. I'm an introvert--I don't generally like the unknown because it can take a lot of energy out of me. 

Which is why what happened next in "Wild Robot" followed after my heart and hugged it until it remembered to beat again. The animals each started telling the fox, "You can talk to me." I won't be alone. I never have been, and I never will be. I am always surrounded (physically and virtually) by loved ones willing to listen and also respond. And even if none of them were there, my Savior always will be.